Be still and know that I am God.. Pslam 46:10
I'm awful at this. I always want to go.. and do.. and go some more. I'm a planner. An organizer.
Lord, why can't I just rest in your presence?!
I'm in Palm Springs with my family for a few days, and as silly as it sounds, I would almost rather be home! Besides looking forward to numerous tennis matches with my dad and brother, I am dreading all of the down time. I want this little vacation to be a beneficial time of solitude, focused on waiting on the Lord for direction.
Holidays have a funny way of illuminating one's singleness, and it bothers me to be discontent over something like that. There are many places in my heart that I thought I had given up to God to let Him fill- only to realize that I held onto those desires more fiercely and quietly than before.
Will the day of rest and contentment ever come? Why won't I let myself be satisfied in Jesus alone?